Forgetfulness
As years roll along, the brain function that I relied on most in my life of multi-tasking, my memory, is not as sharp as it once was. I was the mother of twins plus one, the wife of a local high school band director, and the coordinator of patient care at a hospice that covered five counties. I was a multi-tasker and my memory to keep up with everything was my notepad. I didn’t have a cell phone or an iPad. Jotting notes on a piece of paper was another way to forget as paper got lost!
So today I’ve made myself learn how to utilize a cell phone with “alerts” and an iPad that pops messages across like messages running across the CNN TV screen! It works for me – unless I forget to enter the information! Then do I beat myself up! And what good does that do?!
Self-flagellation, doesn’t work mentally any more than it worked physically in a few sections of the Church! Allowing a video or audio tape to keep playing and replaying over and over and over in my head, telling me how I have failed or I am unable to do something I was once able to do – is destructive!
Instead, I am thinking about everything that was accomplished today. I am thinking about the phone call that I had, unexpectedly, that ended with laughter and brought thoughts of thanks to my mind that this person is in my life.
It has just occurred to me that there was a time in Jesus’ life when He had to rely on someone to help Him fulfill His primary mission here on earth. Simon of Cyrene helped Jesus carry His cross up the hill to Golgotha. Could Jesus have carried it Himself? He was fully God! He was fully man. Simon of Cyrene was there to help. We never hear about him again. Simon fulfilled his destiny.
And maybe I am who I am supposed to be. No one perfect for sure. Someone who does ask questions. Someone who does look for God, who has the best answers.
3“Listen to me, you descendants of Jacob,
all the remnant of the people of Israel,
you whom I have upheld since your birth,
and have carried since you were born.
4 Even to your old age and gray hairs
I am he, I am he who will sustain you.
I have made you and I will carry you;
I will sustain you and I will rescue you.” – Isaiah 46:3-4 (NIV)
Do not listen to your personally made tape about yourself. Listen to what your Heavenly Father has to say about you. His voice is real and true.
